june delights

post-languishing, pear sugar scrubs, glow up puddings + tinned rainbow fish

hello sweet ones,

June has felt… inexplicably sweet. terrifyingly good. vulnerably hopeful.

when you have been in a long long (metaphorical) luteal phase you sort of forget that sweetness and summer exist. there is, of course, medicine in hardship. languishing. winters and autumns of life. but, just like ashwaghanda.. too much of this specifically dark flavor of metamorphosis can eventually alchemise + turn to poison.

As my new growth edge shifts from grit and grind and perservering through mud… to bearing the impossible sweetness of life, I am meeting a new kind of uncomfy. My shoulders drop like honey, the sun warms my face, my loins unclench, pieces start to fall into place, sweet ones draw closer and suddenly the task becomes receiving, enjoying. Turning my ears towards the sounds of summer rain showers, sizzling butter, bird song, rustling forest leaves, gathering chatter & laughter and dinner time music… and away from the bated breath silence of an anticipated shoe drop. My whispered internal mantra happythankyoumoreplease bridges the gap nicely, transitioning my nervous system into a new existence: life can be really good.

I am generally a summer loather but this new rosey bubbly energy has allowed me to delight in the solstice month of June swimmingly well. Some things that have delighted me lately (as detailed below) include: a couple of magnificent grocery trips (food shopping in denmark is usually a pretty grim venture- this was a warm & welcome change), a new abundant manifestation practice, and a pretty breakfast recipe (in that it is pretty and it makes you pretty).

I hope you enjoy this little collection of exuberance and reasons to delight. I hope too that this season is bringing you sweetness, and that if it is instead presenting you with a potent mocktail elixir of bitters you know that your winter will end one day and your summer will arrive & you will have grown in the most beautiful way, having been pruned and prepared to fully enjoy it.

a list of happy little delights:

consumption:

in my glass (jam jar)

• glow chia pudding. every evening I prepare this fairy food and every morning I enjoy it, spoon by spoon, in the sunshine. it is wonderful for skin: hydration + glow inducing, vitamin c filled & has a sort of ethereal, satvic quality.

recipe:

ingredients-

marine collagen, coconut cream & cashew milk, coconut water, chia seeds, almond butter, maple syrup, sliced plums and berries. 

how to:

evening: make large mug of chamomile or rose or lavender or sleepy time tea. listen to the rain or play some forest fairy music + / or classical tunes. fill jam jar with coconut cream, cashew milk and coconut water (heart’s desire is the correct ratio). add teaspoon(s) of marine collagen. blend with hand whisk until immersed but not too frothy. stir in chia seeds (desired amount- I prefer a runny lil pudz but you may like it thicc (?) in the morning: greet little jam jar with a smile, say hello. pour into favorite ceramic bowl. drizzle with maple syrup, dollop of nut butter, sprinkle joyously with confetti slices of stone fruit (plums preferred) and pretty lil berries. enjoy. this is a beauty food and it tastes nice. x

• lavender & chamomile bedtime tea with nut milk and soaked vanilla pods (read: I once bought a lifetime supply of vanilla pods as they were on sale for the equivalent of one dollar at the local grocery store. in previous letters you can read about my vanilla bean matcha creations. I kept the scooped out pods and now love to pour boiling water on them along with my tea of choice.

• my summer elixir bucket list: butterfly pea lemonade, saffron iced lattes, creamy raspberry leaf tea and golden iced coffees. all whimsical + good for brain.

fridge tour (+ pantry)

• the post pay day grocery haul: tins of multicolored artisanal fish (cod, rainbow trout, olive oil drenched tuna, spicy sardines, pickled lemon peel infused mackerel), fancy french puréed soups (pumpkin), lychee juice, danish strawberries, tomatoes on the vine, apricot marmalade (fruit juice sweetened), gluten free buns, pistachio nut butter, magenta candle sticks, salty dates and a grapefruit hand soap.

• follicular style meals: fresh local fish, sweet pea mash, fun salads with fresh fruit, sparkling botanical beverages. jazzy playlists. light, celebratory. post menstrual mood.

on my telly (films + shows that brought glee).  

• dying for sex (does female friendship like this actually exist?)

• & just like that (always grateful to spend another day in the satc universe)

• friends re watch (not a depression indicator)

summer books

• evenings and weekends (fucking delicious + gorgeous: takes place around the solstice in 2019 and has bits about being unable to listen to a song on spotify without imagining oneself on stage singing to thousands/ moving the crowd at karaoke + heatwrenching anecdotes about adult child + parent relations, and little candies like “ i bought acid off a druid once”. )

• all fours: obviously perfect. lately, whenever I feel too odd, pervy, or deranged in social settings (frequent occurrence) i remember that this book and dirty weird women like me exist & suddenly feel okay. also important: the way

  Miranda July
  speaks about eating. the grain free baking, beauty food shopping for sardines and dark chocolate, the weekly cheat meals of strawberry milkshakes + rainbow sprinkles. somehow this particular relationship to food had me feeling so tickled and seen. also had me wondering…do female friendships like this actually exist?

• ACOTAR: okay strictly speaking, not a delight. when does it get good? drudging my way through because I feel that women like me (unabashedly hyper feminine girly girl horny lovers of fluff) adored this book/series. lmk.

beauty secrets (potent lotions, potions +wonders)

• pear blossom scalp scrub  smells sexy, makes hair shiny, delicious weekly shower ritual.

• KP protocol that rlly works: important for summer skin. scrub with green acure scrub. rinse. after shower: the ordinary glycolic acid, COSRX snail serum + snail moisturizer. miracles.

magic moments (pure joy)

• a weekend in my dream home: I have been doing the tbm summer challenge and am generally someone keen on manifesting a life of abundance. since age 12 I have immersed myself in the the world of the secret, scripting, visualization and money magic. one of the things I often do is meditate whilst imagining a day in my dream life. the scents, sights, feelings- i immerse fully. this month, my mundane practice was given a massive upgrade. i spent a full weekend nannying in my absolute dream home. waking up in egyptian cotton, surrounded by an obscene (aka ideal) amount of linen throw pillows, walking barefoot on the most plush, yummy rugs, cooking breakfast and making coffee in a stunning, light filled & well equipped kitchen. sipping milky tea and eating strawberries in the garden. curling up on the coziest couch reading and watching my girly shows on the bang & olufsen television. ending the day in an outdoor rain shower, lathered in dyptique shower gel, kissed by the Scandinavian evening sun. I recall these feelings in my hypnotic state and imagine them to be a part of my daily life. The most potent mindset magic I could ever hope for.

that’s it this month love beans.

wishing you a July full to the brim of unbearably abdundant sweetness & many many little cherished delights.

with love, 

xx michal